marie777

I was in the best shape of my life 3 yrs ago & then came my beautiful daughter that is 18 mos old, I gained 100 lbs w/ my pregnancy due to 2 rounds of predisone & bedrest, but soon she is going to be in college & I will have the same excuse.  I can’t seem to get the weight off.  I love being a working mom, a wife but I never thought I would be one of these people. (sorry I know that is bad but it is true)   I used to swear I would starve myself if I looked like what I do now.  I have always struggled with my weight, I was never overweight but both of my parents were heavy & I remember people making comments about my mom.  I find myself turning into somebody that I do not recognize & actually wouldn’t want to be around.  I complain but do not make the necessary commitment to myself to do anything about it.  Reality hit me in the face when I had to have a picture taken at work & I saw myself on our company website & was mortified.  It was strange I see myself everyday in the mirror but something about that picture.  I do not know if it is laziness, depression or just being tired.  I am also sabotaging my marriage I know my husband loves me but I do not feel pretty, so needless to say our sex life sucks.  I have a few close friends one is a toothpick & eats everything and the other is overweight & happy so I am just happy to find this website & blog.  Thanks for letting me vent.  PS - if I see another celebrity fit in their size 2 jeans 6 weeks after giving birth I am going to kill somebody